candy crush saga

July

You are twenty-one.

One day, one hour.
You are forty.
The seconds were minutes, I know.

poptart

Everyday I wonder and ponder and sonder.
What is it that I want to do?
I really like math and writing, but which one a little bit more?
Can I do both for the rest of my life?
If I write will I wish I had chosen math?
What if I chose math and I forgot how to write?
Can I write in numbers?
Or solve math equations with words?
Where will I be in four years?
How faraway is four years?
I hope I am where I am meant to be.
I really do hope.
I wish that I am where I want to be.

I ate gelato

How I Became Interested In Reading Books and Often

I still remember the first book I ever bought. It is called The Chocolate Touch.

I bought this book from the Scholastic Book Club flyers that my 3rd or 4th teacher passed out to the class. I remember that I bought the book when I was nine or tenth grade and I had never read a book in its entirety before. Since it is always really difficult for me to like a book instantly I kind of left The Chocolate Touch to the side for a while. Then, I believe I had nothing to do one day and I saw the book and picked it up and began to read. I remember most of the plot up to today and I wish to buy the book again because I lost it a long time ago. After The Chocolate Touch I didn't read much until sixth grade where it was mandatory to read to take tests to obtain points to reach a goal that the teachers set for all students. My goal was around twenty to thirty points with each book being three to five points or sometimes two. I had to reach these goals in half a year and for the other half of the year the points either stayed the same or increased. My points increased sometimes. In eight grade was when I became a compulsive reader. I indirectly challenged two other students that were big readers. I read books faster, but slow enough for me to take my time reading and this was when I discovered the world of Harry Potter. Harry Potter books were worth a lot of points and I needed fifty. During this time I read Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone and Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets along with books like The Chocolate War, Of Mice and Men, Night, and other books that I cannot remember right now.

I was happy with the award I received at the end of eighth grade. I thank the other two students who indirectly challenged me to read more. I wonder where they are now. I wonder what they are doing.

 When I entered high school I did not read as much, but after my freshman year in high school I kept reading Harry Potter during the summer to the point that I made my dad drive me downtown to Borders in the middle of the night to pick up Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows sometime in July 2007, and it came with a poster that I still have and will cherish forever.... and ever.

June

Tectonic plates.
A moonquake.
Loud sonic boom.
Craters on the moon.

tan tan tan, tan tan

it's too hot outside D:

May

I like dark chocolate.

And walking alone on streets.

Where no one knows.

That I don't belong.

I received the best score I have ever gotten on a math test the other day

Fool vs. Cool

What is it like to be cool?

To be seen as more than a fool.

How much have flowers cried?

There is more,

just try.

Or if not.

But if yes.

Do not change.

If you do.

Marvel over the fact.

Flowers refuse to be picked

by someone cool.
They prefer to be picked by a fool.

Is it possible to be that smart?

April

What does it matter.

 To anyone.
Are you confused?
It was only a joke.

I need to learn how to grab a brick from the bottom of a pool by tomorrow

Movies That I Bought Recently That I Love

Beetlejuice – I first saw Beetlejuice when I was around seven or eight, I really cannot remember my exact age. I do remember, though, that I saw Beetlejuice for the very first time, late at night, with my sister that is one year younger than me. We built a fort with the couch cushions because, at the time, Beetlejuice was to us what the scariest movies of today are to us. The forts made us feel protected. We saw Beetlejuice late at night, since that was when it aired. I vaguely remember falling asleep on the couch and hugging my blanket close to my chest throughout most of the movie. I even said, “Beetlejuice!” three times out loud at some point to see if it would work. It didn't.

V for Vendetta (It came with Watchmen, but Watchmen I only like) – It was raining and trees were falling outside when I first saw V for Vendetta for the first time. I probably placed this movie on hold at the library and picked it up sometime during the summer of 2010. I understood the story, but the volume on my desktop computer was so low that I didn't understand some of the dialogue. It wasn't until I read the graphic novel a year later that I finally understood clearly what had occurred. I usually love movies like this; movies that make me think. V for Vendetta kept me so engrossed that I even forgot about the rain and chaos that was outside.

Hocus Pocus - I was fairly young when I saw Hocus Pocus for the very first time. I don’t think I saw it from beginning or until the ending, only in small segments or from the middle to the ending. I cannot remember. What I do remember is the witches, the Sanderson sisters, and I don’t think I had seen other movies with witches before Hocus Pocus aside from Halloween Town. Anyway, I loved the thought of being able to make potions and coming back to life after a virgin lights a candle.

[ I couldn't find the movie. 

I don't know where it went.

 Maybe I thought I bought it, but I didn't.

Or maybe I did.]

Good Will Hunting – If there ever was a time when a movie kept me seated and focused, it had to be Good Will Hunting. I recently saw this movie and it caught me off guard. I mean, who wouldn't want to know someone like Will Hunting. I would. To me, this was one of the best well written movies ever and to think that Matt Damon and Ben Affleck wrote it is impressive. All the evidence, knowledge, facts, and dialogue allows for viewer to think and question the movie. This is why I am glad that it was nominated for 9 Academy Awards and was the winner of a Golden Globe. To see that others recognized it in 1995 or 1996 made me happy. I hope to one day write something as remarkable as Good Will Hunting.

my mom noticed that I bought gum again

Really, really listening

I didn't realize what I was listening to until I finally listened to what I was listening to and it made me a bit sad. Not the kind of sad that makes you feel like crying, but the kind of sad that makes you wonder and ask, "How many times have I listened, but not listened at all?" I probably missed something that was within arms reach, but I did not care enough to reach out and listen to what I failed to listen.

I had a nightmare and it was freaky

March

What is it that it is?

Uniquely.
Oblivious.

1/4 of a year.