my mom noticed that I bought gum again

Really, really listening

I didn't realize what I was listening to until I finally listened to what I was listening to and it made me a bit sad. Not the kind of sad that makes you feel like crying, but the kind of sad that makes you wonder and ask, "How many times have I listened, but not listened at all?" I probably missed something that was within arms reach, but I did not care enough to reach out and listen to what I failed to listen.

I had a nightmare and it was freaky

March

What is it that it is?

Uniquely.
Oblivious.

1/4 of a year.

dark chocolate Raisinets

Everything is the color, shape, size, and feeling that it is. Nothing is the nonexistent something that it might be. What if grass was purple instead of green or the sun shown rays as dark as the night? But it would still be day and everyone could see through those dark rays. There would still be night and day and nothing would be peculiar because that is what we will know. If the meaning of cat was mouse and mouse was dog and dog was cat, what would we wonder? Not much, those would be the words of what we know.

If words looked like the colors they represent, would we ever wonder?
Yellow would be spelled like this: =======. Like a sun ray. Blue would be spelled like this: {{{{{{{. Like the top of an ocean with waves. Red would be spelled like this: []. Simple, like the shape of a fire hydrant. And green would be spelled like this: (#). Like a leaf in the fall.

Simon is my valentine

A Mathematical Genius

Rehearse a logarithm.

Learn to be a mathematician.

Tacit clumsy talents.

Inquire: Square root of,

One million.

Cling to the absolute, the obsolete.

Deduce lousy derivatives.

Reply: One trillion.

Create an algorithm.

Ehhh.... Psychology

Stuck In a Paper 

All I know is black and white. I was drawn by a painter for a stranger on the streets of downtown, a sudden scribble for a random passerby. The corners of my mouth are permanently placed like the creases in a book that someone forgot to read. I cannot frown for I am forever smiling and never expressing other emotions I feel. My arms and legs are straws that bend accordingly, but in misleading manners. The stranger folded my world, my view of the universe, and only remembered their own.

Is blue soft, but sticky like cotton candy?

Is yellow extremely hot like the summer or exceedingly sour like a lemon?

All I know is white and black. I run from corner to corner, bumping into the outside world. I was not drawn for a museum or art display. If I was redrawn on another piece of paper or on a beautiful canvas, would I look for my original place? If I flew on a cloud and jumped on an advertisement I would see drivers and passengers heading to their own piece of paper. That place which they call home. I am where I have always been, in a crease in the bench that the stranger ate lunch on and forgot the scribble from the painter, this piece of paper.

Does green bend like grass or brown flow like sand through the fingers of a hand?

Does orange feel round like the fruit of the same name?

All I know is black and white and white and black. If one cannot miss what they do not know, then why do I yearn to be in the world outside of this piece of paper? It hurts to be stuck in a paper.

I have internet now, and again

February

I thought about yesterday.

And remembered tomorrow.

I forgot one hour ago.

It is today, another day?

the fault in our stars

I had no idea what to expect when I decided to read The Fault in Our Stars. I first heard about John Green from my sister who owned Paper Towns and mentioned to me that someone she talked to said that Looking for Alaska was an awesome book, which is John Green’s first book. It took me a while to begin reading Looking for Alaska because I was reading another book at the time. After reading Looking for Alaska I read An Abundance of Katherine’s, but I wasn’t ecstatic when I found out that John Green was publishing another book. It was all remembering. I needed a book to read and I remembered about The Fault in Our Stars.

The Fault in Our Stars was surprising as I read and read. For any book I read, I tend to look up what the book is about. I didn’t do that for Our Fault in Our Stars. When I checked it out from the library I read the summary on the book jacket. I had no idea what to expect, absolutely no idea. This is why I was always surprised as I read page after page and when I thought I knew what was going to happen next, what I thought would happen never ended up happening. This was what kind of kept me reading, the fact that I didn’t know the story. I would recommend this book to anyone who seeks surprises.

Also, when I returned The Fault in Our Stars back to the library I placed a poem inside entitled, I May, I Might, I Must by Marianne Moore. I hope the person who finds it reads it and if they don’t I will never know. I tried.

My internet was cancelled, it will be back tomorrow.

January

No snow on the house or sidewalk.

Or the streetlight.

Not a centimeter.

Nor a millimeter on the bench.

If I were Bionic Woman, what would I wear?

TV Show character that I wish was my friend

Bill Haverchuck, Freaks and Geeks

When one of my sisters told me that we should watch Freaks and Geeks, I didn't think much of it. As the opening sequence began to play of the first episode, I knew that Freaks and Geeks was going to be a great show, which it was. After some time, though, I realized that I would like to have a friend like Bill Haverchuck played by Martin Starr, who is one of the geeks. I guess, what made me come to the conclusion that I would want to be friends with Bill Haverchuck was the fact that he:

• has a smart sense of humor that when understood is actually really funny.
• doesn't really care what others think or say.
• takes things as they occur.
• has awesome glasses. 
• does weird facial expressions.
• has a humble attitude.
• eats alone while watching tv.

we didn't get subway

I didn't know there could be so many great books at a thrift store. My cousin, my sister, and I went to a thrift store with the goal of finding and buying a towel and blanket for Bear, my cousin's energetic dog.
After finding the towel and blanket, we paid, and were about to leave when we saw a sign that read, "Christmas decorations on the 3rd floor." We thought we should check it out, so we went to the 3rd floor. We browsed through kitchen utensils, toys, and random other things. We were about to leave when we saw an empty corner full of BOOKS. We thought, hey! why not? it doesn't hurt to look through books. We walked to that corner and after finding Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows for $2.00, we realized we could find other great books.
We looked at about 80% of the books on every shelf. These are the books that my sister and I bought.

Books I bought

Books my sister bought

We had a tough time carrying the books home, but we saved a lot of money.

I get confused, is it film of movie? Which do I say?

Every once in a while I come across a song that I feel would go great in a movie. This is the reason why I have created a playlist of thirteen songs that I feel would fit well in a movie, somehow. These aren't the only songs I feel I would put in a movie, there are more. These are just the songs that I happened to put in this playlist. I haven't really thought about what scenes these songs would appear in, but I know that if I heard any of these songs in a perfect scene in a movie I would be more than excited. I would probably jump out of my seat if I am in a theater or run around my house if I am at home.

Here's the playlist.